- #MH 4.0

You made my day!

- syed zahir

Dear Abg Edy,

Pls take note that adik rindu. *hmm!

Since abg edy habis belajar, we didnt hang out together. Until we met again during my team building program. Kebetulan, it was in your hometown.

And, u nvr changed - masih jugak buli adik. Masih jugak amik berat pasal adik. Masih jugak dgn soalan yg sama "adik dgn siapa skrg ni?"

Dear Abg Edy,

Pls take note that adik dah takde kawan nak tgk cite hantu. *sobs!

I hope you and your family are in barakallah.

I miss you. A lot!

Jzkk.

- busuk 2.0

Dear busuk's gf,

Here are some notes for you to study about ur bf a.k.a my bff:

DONT
- membebel. He hates it so much.
- downgrade him. It means you disrespect him.
- ask for food-hunting. He's not that type.
- prepare vegetables. He does not eat green leaves.
- prepare fish. He eats siakap only.
- milo! He stomach gets intolerant w/ this drink.
- hide ANYTHING from him. You just put yourself in trouble.
- get jealous w/ his scandal. You know who.
- get jealous w/ me. Because he loves he. *kidding!
- check his hp. He will share w/ you everything.
- watch horror movie/drama. He HATES it.

DO
- respect his family and cousins.
- ribena and coke are enough. Both of them must in original flavour.
- trust him. Because you have too.
- good foods! Yet, he doesnt ask for expensive treat all the time.
- straightforward. He hates long intro.
- listen to him. He is a spoil brat. He needs your attention.
- support him. Eventually, he will change. He will.
- be serious when he is serious.
- handle him with extra care. He is not a typical malay guy.

HABIT
- stay up for the whole night.
- mumbling while he is sleeping! So, listen to him carefully.
- merajuk! So far, i x pernah pandai/tahu pujuk dia.
- clean shirts, clean pants, clean shoes with clean socks.
- jaga hati org yg dia sayang. Like, totally.

***If he said "DONT", you better dont do it. I have done my part. Now, its all yours.

***Dear babe, not all happy relationship must have marriage-happy-ever-after ending. To some relationships, that's the limit.

- busuk

Dear busuk,

Pls take note that some of my friends are against our relationship. For them, you are not strong enough to be my lifetime partner.

But,

To me, you are my Mr. Perfect 10. As a friend, a bestfriend, a boyfriend, a brother and as a daddy whom my kids will look at. I know, financially you are lacking here and there but i am confident we will/could work for it. Aite?

But,

I have to respect your decision.

And,

I dont know whether i will wait or i will not. As for now, i leave it everything to Allah.

I mungkin tak dapat you kt dunia, but i pray hard i will get you in akhirat.

Ameen.

- mereka

I just finished my shift by 7.00pm today. Not really "just" since i come out later that schedule.

Entah kenapa hari ni memilih utk stop over kt RnR Dengkil. Initially, nak tapau and blah but i chose to stay for a while.

Accompanied by 2 cups of coffee and my phone, i took this moments to analyse my surrounding. Datang, utk makan atau melepaskan lelah.

Memerhati 1 demi 1 wajah yg penat dan lapar, jujurnya buat rasa tersentuh. Terfikir, one of them maybe pernah call nak tanye berkenaan masalah network, baki akaun, charge utk bill etc.

Ya Rabb, moga tak ada antara mereka ini yg pernah terima makian yg tidak selayaknya. #eh

Jzkk.

- taf day

Me : hye. Welcome to customer first helpline. My name is Qi. How may i assist you today?

Customer: i nak cakap dgn manager. I nak buat complaint pasal sim card i yg amik masa lebih drpd 24H utk aktif. I tukar my simcard dekat center Kuching. Then, i pergi KL kt ampang point. Mintak tunggu 4 jam. Lepas tu i call lg.. Mintak lg sampai mlm. Sampai i fly ke kuching balik, i pergi center kuching, baru dpt aktif kan sim card. Nak tahu. You guys mmg xde rase nak bg pampasan ke? Takde rase nak bertanggungjawab ke utk sim card i yg tak dpt nak aktif utk 4 hari tu?

Me: sy semak semula cik. Cik nak bercakap dgn manager berkenaan dgn isu sim card yg aktif lebih drpd 24jam tu ye?

Customer: ya Allah awak tak dgr ke ape yg sy cakap td? Skrg ni sy kena tukar sim card. Puncanya sbb sy tak boleh gunakan internet. Then, bila i call center, one of your friends kate i kena tukar simcard. Then bila dh tukar, simcard tak dpt aktifkan. Bila simcard dh aktif internet masih tak boleh pakai jugak.

Me: sy mintak maaf berkenaan masalah tu cik. Tp sy nampak kt sini cik ade 2 isu. Yg pertama, berkaitan dgn panggilan semula dpt manager utk simcard yg ambil masa utk aktif lebih drpd 24jam. Dan yg kedua masalah internet yg tak boleh digunakan walaupun cik dah tukar simcard. Berkenaan dgn panggilan drpd manager itu, sy akan dptkan manager sy utk buat panggilan semula dlm tempoh 5 hari bekerja. Dan utk masalah internet sy akan rujuk kes ni kepada bahagian teknikal dan teknikal akan buat panggilan semula dlm tempoh 24jam.

Customer: nak tunggu 24 jam lagi?EH? KORANG KT SANA NI BUAT KEJE KE BUAT APE? KE GOYANG KAKI? DAH ENGKAU NI BUAT APE? GOYANG T*T*K?

Me: sy mintak maaf cik. Kalau cik terus menggunakan kata-kata kesat, sy terpaksa batalkan talian sekarang.

Customer: KAU DAH KENAPA B*TINA? (tah amende lg die mencarut)

Me: sy mintak maaf cik. Sekiranya tidak ada apa2 lg yg boleh sy bantu sy terpaksa batalkan talian sekarang. Terima kasih kerana membuat panggilan. Bye.

[Talian diputuskan]

The next second, i checked the report and i saw she made another call and complaint on me by claiming that i refused to assist her. *yeay!

- a secret

I have a secret.

I called him. Once he said "hello" - i dropped the call.

I am the happiest girl. Yeay!

- #MH 3.0

Dear Boo,
It is not easy to live with the guilty feelings in me. To see MH grows from a boy to a man. It is happy and sad to see his transition.

But, part of me, frankly speaking i still want the old version of him. Not to say that i dont want to see him to move.

Dear Boo,
Two years ago we were separated due to almost the same issue. Miscommunication. He chose to silent. I chose not to ask. And, we chose to end the relationship. I think now, it happens again. Will the friendship ends?

Dear Boo,
Do you what hurts me more? He IGNORES me.

Dear Boo,
I lost -

Jzkk.

- cuteness overload

Stalking him? Bukanlah. I am happy to see him in that mood. Sexy.

PM die? Nak buat apa. He is not talking to me. Die maksudkan org lain. Ex-gf die. Maybe. Ex-gf yg mane acik x pasti. Or maybe, a future gf. Who knows.

Takpe. Acik mengalah kt situ. Tgk dr jauh je.

Jzkk.

- kahwin v3.0

Paranoid. Me.

Hmm.

- bimbang

Hey, i start to limit my words -

Taknak lebih-lebih. Nanti salah cakap lg. Taip, delete. Taip, delete. Yg tinggal 1 patah perkataan je. *ehe!

Rasa mcm bukan diri sendiri pun ada. Tapi selagi tak sakitkan hati org lain, ada baik nya kan?

Good night.

- kahwin v2.0

I really respect to those who could live together dgn keadaan "seadanya". Ada, ada. Takde, kita usaha.

Nana - " tak teringin nak kawin ke cik? Seronok tau kawin ni. Tak teringin ke kalau dah tua nti kau sibuk nak tunggu anak-anak cucu kau balik beraya dgn kau nanti? Tak bosan ke hidup sorang?"

Cinta - "umur you dah 30. Mmg tak plan nak kawin ke?"

Let me tell you 1001 reasons why i feel like i am not ready yet.

Jzkk.

- i dont know how to say NO

Especially to a request.

I just notice that i hv that bad habit. Whenever ppl make a req, i will hardly say NO. I dont know why. But according to a motivator, i am not the only person who has the issue. Well, you can see this situation clearly when someone is begging for something and that person will try to say "no" due to some circumstances but eventually will say "yes" even though he does not want to do it.

Mm. Tolonglah paham dgn org yg ada masalah mcm ni -

Buat salah, tak buat salah.

I hv a situation whereby i was totally exhausted. Restless - my plan was, masuk keje 7pg - 4ptg. Balik and tido. Pkul 12tgh mlm nak keluar since my friend was here i hve to fetch him up at Nilai area. Esoknya my shift will be at 7am lg ni.

Tapi, we have a plan but HE is the best planner. Out of sudden my team ajak lepak Williams! Fyi, Williams kt PJ ekh. Plan nak lepak lepas maghrib. Around 8pm la kan? Then what? I have to wait from 4pm until 8pm? Then makan2 nak settle dlm pkul 10pm? Then nak balik rumah yg kt Seremban and keluar balik pukul 12? Oh.mai.gat -

I was really stuck. I dont want to say yes but in the same time i cant say no.

Apa yg I buat? BERDOA supaya plan nak lepak Williams tu tak jadi. And, yes! Allah makbulkan doa. Plan tu tak jadi. My TL decided to cancel the plan. Alhamdulillah.
Back to the topic -

How will i reject a request? I will reject the request before the person makes her request. Normally i buat strategy bila shopping with my mum.

Mum : Along tak teringin ke nak belanja mak lunch?

Me : boleh. But no buffet lunch. No shopping. Kite keluar just utk lunch je tau?

WHY I HAVE TO REJECT UPFRONT?

I personally taknak org rasa kecewa bila i x dapat penuhi impian org tu. SERIOUSLY. I know the feelings. For me, selagi dlm daya i utk i buat i akan buat.

TAPI -

Bukan semua org boleh baca niat kita like kita pun x paham niat org. Org tu bergurau kita pulak yg serious ingat org tu tgh serious. Kan?

Anyway, i learned and i am learning.

Jzkk.

- back on my business

Sedih.

Every time when i read his words, confirm bergenang air mata.

But! On the other hand, it gives me a challenge.

Chin up. I am a big girl! :)

- tak selesa

Especially when start to talk about your private part to me. If you are a girl, fine. The problem is you are not -

Somehow, what makes you so comfortable to talk about all of this (read it as "private part") to me? I did not start the dirty conversation at all. I nvr asked but he offers me to give the answer.

I start to feel not comfortable. :(

Since he starts to be so open, i think i have to kill the excitement.

Terpaksa la sound direct. Buat muka not interested.

Hopefully he will understand. Hmm.

Jzkk.

- awak cari saya?

Tapi saya dah taknak cari awak lg dah. Awak pun pandai jaga diri sendiri kan? You're a big boy now.

Saya dah penat.

Saya nak rehat.

Jzkk.

- kahwin v1.0

To some days, i feel like i am ready to marry someone like him a.k.a #MH but to some other days, i just want to live free.

Fawra - "adik lelaki aku dah kawin. Die x keje pun. Semua bini die tanggung. Drpd majlis kawin sampai la hidup skrg ni. Die nak keje pun xleh sbb sakit. Mak aku mula2 segan gak tp dah perempuan tu beriya sgt. Mak aku bg je la. Perempuan tu pun die kate tak kisah. Cuma jgn bg tahu mak ayah die la."

Bendly - "mana ada yg boleh sama 100%. Kembar pun lain2. Kalau sudah suka, kamu kahwin sajalah. Manusia boleh berubah. Lelaki sesetengahnya ada sejenis manusia yg belajar bila die sudah berkomitmen."

Me - clueless.

Jzkk.

- #MH 2.0

Salam alaik. Hye!

Well, hye. I am in a mission to look for my future husband where actually i need a person who is exactly copycat my #MH.

Tak kisah la lvl of edu setakat itu. Tak kisah la keje hanya seada yg mampu. But, yes. That's all i need. The simple and easy him.

Only now i understand why Adele's song titled Someone Like You -

Why not the #MH? Because he is taken.

Lets the hunt begins. Jzkk.

- leave

Salam alaik. Hello and hye.

I have just stalked my boss's FB. Surprisingly, he is inspiring me. Thank you Abg Wan.

Long after that, i scrolled my whatsapp contacts. Hmm. Fyi, i block one of my bfs's number. I am sorry. But i have too.

It was a miserable relationship.

Dear ABCDEFGHim,

Thank you for everything. But our relationship has no ends.

Jzkk.

- Syawal, please welcome!

Masih bersarang rasa rimas. Masih berbuku rasa tak puas. Masih tak cukup rasa ikhlas.

Penangan dosa -

Sampai hilang nikmat taubat.

Jumpa punca. Tp masih hilang arah haluan utk bermula.

Mana mungkin.

Jazakallah.