- she's turning 5!

no words can describe how much i love her! cepat masa berlalu. dah 5 tahun. and, yes. things are different now. we have plans, but His plans are above all. what else to expect? Noorin Qistina, Mak Long will definitely stand by you no matter what will happen darling. you deserve a better place in here and hereafter. do not bother what will people stay. chin up and just walk. you can do it. :')

- little Mahirah Aida is now 4!!~

she's now 4! alahai. kecik kemetot je orgnye. tp.. akal die... sangat! ade je modal die nak bergaduh dgn umi. hahaha. yup. sehari x bergaduh dgn umi die mmg x sah la. kesayangan ayah, nenek, atok, mami and many of us. dear drama queen, happy birthday! :)

- hasil adobe photoshop

- the best gift ever ;)

Assalamualaikum. pengajaran hari ini, harapan jgn terlalu menggunung. satg kalau x kesampaian, hati kita jugak yg remuk kan? *senyumdgnsabar*

yes, today i got the best 'gift' ever. when my team people came late to the photo shoot set. hurmm. i don't know. in previous time, i still can tolerate with their 'time punctuality'. but not for today. i have been there for half an hour. and, yes, no one appear.

the excited mood changed into bad mood. yet, i still try to control myself. frankly speaking, i am too tired to entertain everyone. really tired. don't they realize that i have the feeling too? ok. if u cant respect me as the president but at least try to respect my time. i can do a lot of thing in that half an hour. after half and hour and no one appear, i decided to leave the set. no point for me to stay. i was not in my mood. my face will ruin everything soon. *icantsmile*

esok, kalau ikut plan L nak kena g MARA tuk bincang pasal projek. insyaAllah, kalau diberi kekuatan L akan sampai ke pejabat MARA tu. dh seminggu tertangguh. YA Illahi Rabb, permudahkanlah segala urusanku esok hari. Amin. *senyumlagi*

- street dance

Morning...~! no. L x perform stree dance. maakkkk! haruslah L mampu nak buat all those street dance steps. haha. berzapin sudah. itu kan jiwa.*smile*

have you ever watch about 'Street Dance' movie? that movie really inspiring me. drop the issue of pronunciations. they sounded in some accents. i am not so sure what kind of accent is that.  UK, perhaps. i watched this movie, again and again and again. especially whenever i am so down.

more or less bout the story. Carly is the hero in this story. starting when her bf ditch up the crews, and her as well. then, they faced up with a lot of problems. place for training, money, one by one the crews left her except Shawna and so forth. among all of them, Carly remains stand strong. she could try any possibilities in order to make her dream come true; the best dancer in UK. she managed to turn something impossible to possible. Helena came into the scene to help with one condition. Carly and her crews will get the place to practice for their UK Championship however she needs to include the crew with the ballets dancers. *jawdrop* of course she refused to accept that offer but thinking of she has no option, she has to say yes. come on. ballet vs street dance. it just like the earth and and the sky. Helena in the same time was trying to drill the feelings and emotional in her students. quarrels, fights, ego, misunderstanding become part of the routine in their practice. but, in the end they managed to do it. and, yes they won the championship by maximizing the strengths from both dancers.

hurm. Carly is my idol. i am impress with her spirit. no matter what the problems she need to face up. she just facing it. do appreciate people around us in the same time. I love Helena's phrase 'u cannot to make it or you do not want to make it?'. never coming with any conclusion before you know about something. try to learn and to understand as well. after that, u may say your opinion.  something sounds stupid at the initial phase does not mean it will end up with stupid look. here, we need to use our knowledge. maximize. find your own recipe. *smilesweet!

yeah, not that easy to handle it. but, i choose to handle it. *smileandtears!

- puzzle memory

menyusun puzzle memory semester 4 2011/2012 @ UniSZA. Alharhumah Siti Aishah Yusop dalam kenangan.:)

sendu berselang-seli dengan senyum dan tawa. macam-macam warna ada. semester yg paling mencabar buat L dan rakan-rakan sekelas. dr awal sampai akhir sem. salah paham. salah pandai. salah silap. semua ada. ada juga drama-drama picisan yang tak kurang hebatnya. whahahaha. hurm. kasihan untuk si hero tempelan yg cuba berlagak untuk menjadi Hero Drama Murahan Malaya. heroin? tentulah ada. aneh-aneh perangai manusia. ye. mungkin watak hero itu penting. tapi rasanya bukan dalam drama sebabak yg mana jalan ceritanya telah ditentukan. wahai si hero tempelan, lain kali cuba garap kisah sendiri, hokayh? lebih baik. jgn sibukkan kisah org. hitung amal sendiri dulu. jgn nak kira aib org. aib sendiri pun belum tertutup. peringatan yg sama untuk si penghikayat ini juga. insyaAllah. kagum juga dengan kesungguhan dia tu. *senyumsinis*

kehidupan, pasangannya adalah kematian. walaupun berkali-kali telah mengingatkan diri bahawa suatu ketika, suatu saat nanti pasti ia akan datang juga. but, yes. say is much easier than execute. bila masa sampai waktu itu, perasaan dan akal mula berkira-kira tentang peranan sang 'kalau'. 'kalau itu....' dan 'kalau ini...' kenapa ye? mungkin kita terlupa bahawa ada yang Maha Mengetahui. kita merancang, tapi Dia juga mempunyai perancangan yg lebih baik untuk kita. ingat. Dia x beri apa yg kita minta, sebaliknya kita akan dapat apa yg kita perlukan. sebab? logiknya, kalau kita dapat apa yg kita minta nescaya qalbu yg satu ini akan meminta lebih dari itu. betulkan? *senyum*

perkara yg sama juga yg kita akan amalkan pada anak2 kelak. x mustahil untuk kita berikan apa sahaja kehendak mereka tapi lama-kelamaan mereka akan kurang menilai. kurang menghargai. see! itu pemberian dr manusia kepada manusia yg dah tentu2 serba kekurangan. apa lagi kalau mendapat sesuatu daripada Maha Sempurna? boleh kita nak berjanji...'Ya Allah, ini adalah permintaan ku yg terakhir. aku berjanji, selepas ini aku xkan meminta apa2 daripadaMu...' mampu? *senyumlagi*

mungkin ada yang mampu. tapi lebih banyak yg x mampu daripada yang mampu. manusia memang dilahirkan dengan nafsu. tahniah kepada yg mampu!

back to the point, sem 4 @UniSZA. sem ni la yg L memang 'jauh' dgn classmates. sebab berkomitmen dgn SIFE. ouh. bukan calang-calang org yg boleh buat tugas ni ok. *bakulrasaberat! disebabkan kesibukkan itulah, memang x terasa sem 4 dah habis. MasyaAllah. ALHAMDULILLAH. segalanya dipermudahkan. i believe all difficulties have some sweetness behind. vice versa. susah nak gambarkan tentang kemanisan dan kepuasan. all I know, i will smile when i try to remember about it.  tipulah kalau semuanya indah. kan? *senyumlebar*

by now, L ada satu lagi final. of course about SIFE. setelah berjuang untuk lebih kurang 4 bulan and now my baby will be on the stage. i feel bless with my team now. Thanks to u ALLAH. dalam setandan pisang, mana ade yg x busuk. mesti. yg busuk, jangan dibuang. lama-lama dia akan lerai sendiri dari tandannya. yg pasti, L memang x boleh baca minda org. ouh. memang xnak pun. sah-sah la pekerjaan tu sgt memenatkan. *hurm*

esok, 19 Jun 2012. my bf and his kids will be back from Bali. semoga selamat sampai ke Malaysia ya mas!

ok readers. L dah nak start menjeling2 mana company yg sesuai untuk L buat internship.  kalau dapat buat internship dengan Al-Bukhary Foundation, memang puasa syukur L untuk seminggu. my idol ok! hopefully, x banyak masalah sgt. doakan rezeki L murah. L doakan rezeki korg murah juga. amin. be safe ya! calins et baisers. etre fabuloux. je'taime. take care.

- be positive!

i had a chance to meet my bf's family last weekend. more precise, on Tasha's wedding. i went there with my long-lost friend. x la long lost sgt. just lame x jumpe je. last jumpe last  year. time kt KLCC. awal bulan 10. this time jumpa and ask for some help. L kan kurang upaya. hahah. sampai la ni xdak license. haihhhh!!!!

back to the point. about my bf's kids. kalau boleh la nak tabik spring tu my bf, memang L tabik spring dah. not only me, his friends said the same thing too. di kala org sibuk menceritakan remaja dan masalah sosial, hang out late night, x balik rumah, less respect to the older people, being selfish and etc, but not to his kids. SEMUA, sangat2 membanggakan. sangat. do respect the older, on the function itself masing2 buat kerja masing2. they managed to do it together like nothing happened. very close to each other.

so, mcm mane nak kate L x tabik spring to my bf? hehe. come on. bukan semua org boleh buat perkara tu ok. for your record, the sisters and the brother come from different mommies. but, like i said, nothing makes different. :)

siapa yg x bangga dengan anak2 yg mcm tu kan? goshhhhh. personally, L kalau jadi mommy pun terang2 la sejuk perut. xde ape nak risaukan sgt. pandai jaga diri masing2. when i asked about the recipe, my bf said, instill ur kids with all the positive attitudes, thus they will be positive as well. stop saying about the past. move forward. even on the last day i met my bf, his daughter still texted him and asked whether he had his lunch or not. see!!!! hebat kan?

so, future mommy and daddy yg ade terbaca post ni  la kan... it is not impossible to have kids with such attitude nowadays. read a lot! try to understand their needs. owh! fyi, my bf is a single parent since last 14 years ago. so, what else that can make you to say it is impossible?

tepuk dada, tanya iman. being moderate at all the time, insyaAllah, it will help you to be patient in raise up your kids. my bf sangat2 menjaga halal and haram dalam pemakanan. sangat! he loves food but he does not eat foods without clear source. even though, that food being serve by Malay's stall. this is another tip to share. do not eat foods that contain with doubt source and do not eat what ever that not yours. clear?

ok. tipu la kalau L kata L x sayangkan bf. cuma, malu juga pada diri sendiri untuk mengaku tentang hal itu sedangkan pada yg Maha Pencipta pun L x mampu nak tunjukkan kasih sayang tu. ade jugak waktu2nya L kufur dgn nikmat. hurmmm. then, nak tergedik2 pulak declare 'i love my bf more than anything'? memang dah hilang akal la tu kan?? hahahah. what i'm trying to say here is, sayang biar pada tempatnya. understand ur limit. yes, i do love him because of himself. nothing else. :)

ouh. tipu la kalau L x jeles. kala ade sang teman mula merengek mengatakan ' i rase mcm something la bile jumpe bf u..' dan reaksi L '-_______________________________________________-' (i really don't understand what are you trying to say!) kalau rase nak kena tepuk muka tu... meh la cuba! haha. dlm ber'couple' memang xde istilah curang. curang hanya untuk mereka yg sudah mempunyai ikatan yg sah. tapi, x bermaksud kita boleh menggunakan hak itu sewenangnya. x salah pun untuk jujur pada diri sendiri, kan? :)

ok. penat dah membebel. wishing all my seniors, classmates and junior can do well in their final exam. 2 days to go and, L x study lg ni. nyum3. be good dears and darlings. je'taime. Mwahhh!
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- eh, dah nak abis?!!

ouchhhh. salam alaik all. segala mcm rasa yg ada dalam sem ni. yeayyy! segala mcm kepayahan untuk sem ni jugak. yeayy! haha. ALHAMDULILLAH. segalanya dipermudahkan. dari projects, assignments, tasks, etc. semua berjaya L harungi walaupun rase mcm x mampu. berkat sokongan keluarga, sahabat dan musuh, jiran-jiran yg jauh dan dekat, akhirnya 80% perjalanan untuk semester 4 ini berjaya L lalui. terima kasih. (ucapan bajet dpt anugerah pelajar cemerlang. T______T)

ehhh!!! bulan June jugak... bulan kegembiraan untuk ibu2 baru. tahniah DA, Nana and Mell. 1 girl, 2 boys. insyaAllah, kalau ade kesempatan L akan menjengah anak2 buah yg baru tu ye. insyaAllah sempat!!! walaupun dah tahu dah... tugas yg hakiki xkan pernah habis. positif!

eh. dah janji nak post gambar kan?!! jap. sila jemput cuci mata. xyah amik mana2 bahagian ok. these are all the pictures that I have along semester 4 in UniSZA. houtsetesen... xyah ckap la. memanjang!!! pantang weekend, hout saje. :)

: : Dynamic Leadership Training @ Summit USJ. the taste was very bittersweetsour : :

: : sweetest memory. gamelan : :

: : SMNE pre qualification training at Sunway U. stayed at Sunway Monash U. : :

: : attended the wedding of Sir Zack's daughter : :

haaaa...~! nampak kan? heheheeh. i don't really like people capture my pic because they don't really know the right angle to capture a picture. yet, it makes me look... something else. eh?!! hahahahaha. nampak x gaya penafian tu mcm mane? dan2 la nak salahkan org  yg amik gamabr or the camera. nampak sgt cuba mengelak dari kebenaran. kih3.

just landed in Terengganu airport this evening at 5.30pm. then, menunggu org yg sudi amik L dr airport je dh sejam setengah ok. sabar. hadeh. settlekan mane yg perlu. esok, meeting with FA. malam, will finalize everything. yes, everything. maghrib esok kang insyaAllah ade majlis bacaan yasin. malam, weekly meeting.  before, I will seat for the final examination - 1st paper will be on 10th June. this time around lain sebab bf x sudi nak temankan study. so, kena study sorg2. sedayyyyy!!!

dah pukul 1 pagi. i need rest. sweet rest. away for today darlings. meet ya tomorrow, insyaAllah. etre fabuleux! calins et baisers. je'taime. mwahhhhhh! au revoir.

- restless May!

ouch. L sempat update 2 kisah je untuk bulan May?! woww. wooowwww. weee..~! maknanye sgt busy la tu kan? hehe. yess. non-stop working since a week of break on the early month of May 2012.  SIFE, classes, assignments, projects and etc in the same month. semua same naik!  ada la jugak yg berbunyi - kerja, kerja jugak. tp ingat la diri sendiri jugak. hurm. how i wish i could sleep nicely without worry about anything. yes, about anything.

2 big events from SIFE M. Dynamis Leadership workshop and SMNE Pre Qualification Training. best! Final project for gamelan. super duper best. a load of assignments. urmm.. best la kot. haha.yg kurang best or should L say memang x best langsung - tentang pemergian dia. hurm. tersentak jugak tangkai jantung ni kala kedua telinga ini menerima berita tentang pulangnya dia ke pangkuan yg Maha Penyayang.

puas minda ini berfikir. bertanya. memang itukah janji dia dgn Maha Pencipta? kali terakhir bergurau dgn Allahyarhamah, tetap ceria seperti biasa. mengusik. iye. itulah kali terakhir L bergurau dgn dia. kali terakhir L bercakap dgn dia sebelum dia dijemput pulang.  sedikit demi sedikit L mula rasa kehilangan. sangat susah untuk menghadapi keadaan itu rupanya. bercakap lebih mudah daripada menanggung.

perginya dia dengan tenang. segala urusan telah pun dipermudahkan. kata teman-teman yg perasan tentang kelainan beliau pd hari itu, beliau nampak lebih berseri daripada biasa. wallahua'lam. terima kasih Ya Allah atas kemudahan itu. Alhamdulillah. kematian itu sesuatu yg pasti. untuk pertama kalinya L menghadapi kehilangan seperti ini. setiap hari L berjanji akan berusaha untuk tidak mengalirkan air mata lagi. dan setiap kali itulah air mata akan bergenang. sebak. :(

teman seperjuangan yg lain masih lagi terasa kehilangan dia. sugul. well, she was a good friend to everyone. no matter how loud she was, but people still can accept her style. thus, that's the reason why people can feel the different. semoga tenang di sana dik.

currently, the Hospital Sultanah Zahirah is my second home. yeahhh. menemankan Nik Nur Aisyah yg masih belum pulih dr kecederaan. cepat2 sembuh ye dik. so far kesihatannya ecah semakin baik. hope die terus kuat semangat. she looks fragile but she actually stronger than what people expected. i'm proud of you my little Aisyah.

no pics for this post. u may refer to my next post about the pictures related to the events that I attended. see ya! be safe. like what my bf used to remind me again and again.. be good! :P