Tuesday, January 13, 2015

- temu dan duga

kisahnye. tipu sgt kalau kata tak penat. since i've done everything, maka memang terasa lelahnya. sampai la ke temuduga semalam. i met Mr. Meo - my consultant - finally i decided to register with a consultant. well, to register with a consultant is actually my very last resort.

i started my interview by telling him that i was an ex-staff for DiGi. so, i come back to DiGi as my last opt after i attended 7 interviews. dah nak muntah attend interview. i thot i org paling banyak attended interviews tp tak dapat-dapat. rupanya, ade yg lg banyak! terus-terang i told him yg i memang dah give up. bukan cerewet! tp lebih memilih. well, every smile has its dark secret. no one is perfect, isnt? that's the reason why my prev employer becomes my last resort. tapi, daripada tersadai kt rumah takde buat ape pun, lebih baik terima je offer. kan? and, mungkin after 4 years byk yg dah berubah. who knows.

AND! he told me a story of a candidate -"she attended 15 interviews with salary range from rm1200 to rm1800 but didnt get any positive feedback. finally, on this one fine day she got an offer to attend an interview with Bank Muamalat. yes, she scores the position with rm2500 as her salary. see! you better not to give up. Allah always has a better plan for you. sabar. sikit je lagi. I selalu percaya dengan benda-benda mcm ni. yg penting you jgn give up. He holds you for something better."

hmm. well, brg baik memang mahal harganya. susah pulak nak jumpe. kan? nampak sgt pujuk hati. *haha! btw, after attended a few interviews i start to get a clear picture about what i wanted to do. but, somehow, i have/must follow the rules - if you cant do what you love, at least try to love what you have.

kt situlah temu dan duganya.

jzkk.

Monday, January 5, 2015

- 2015~!

Assalamualaikum. bersawang sgt kan? *haha! 2014 has ended. i had a very tight schedule for my december. a very long weekend travel. Alhamdulillah. semua dah selesai. n now i  am busy with  my job hunting. *hurm!

well, hello 2015. gosh. such a terrified year for me. only now i feel a bit insecure with myself. jobless. single. as if - teruknya nasib kau? am i going to be single for the rest of my life? am i going to live like this everyday? but, why now?

kusut. tergerak hati nak skrol ig. terpandang a post by one of my favourite girls - NSMF. she talked about ad-dhuha. which, all this while i have a wrong perception about dhuha prayer. she reminds me in her post that ad-dhuha sebenarnya lebih kepada utk mendidik hati supaya merasa serba cukup. biar pun kurang, tetap cukup. biar pun tak sempurna, tetap cukup. biar pun tak hebat, tetap cukup. obviously, kalau kita rasa cukup, kita akan sentiasa rasa mudah dan murah rezeki. hebat kan solat dhuha?

kecukupan itulah yg mengajar hati ini utk bersyukur dan bersedia dgn rezeki Dia. cakap pasal rezeki pulak - 

tipu sangat kalau kata tak penat berusaha. but some how, i know He is there for me. He is ready to give what i need when i need it. He knows when i am ready for it. MAKA - tak payah la awak yg tak perlu ni nak berpantun tentang rezeki dan jodoh kita. your concerns are much appreciated. deal? easy. bahagian yg kusut td pun takde la kusut sgt bila hati dah redha. kan?

insyaAllah, tomorrow will be my 6th interview. Alhamdulillah. i know that i am not so qualified for the position but i will try my best.

take care readers. jzkk.