so, this is my first time in my entire life to have this kind of situation. my bf suddenly shut down himself for a week. no call. no msg reply. no any respond. nothing at all. Ya Rabb! i was suffering during that time. i have no idea with what was happened. for a week, i lived in thinking and trying to figure out for any possibilities for that problem. i found nothing. but, one thing that i did was i never stop texting him everyday and every night. just to ensure that he knows i love and care about him very much. for me, that is the only way to show that i am concern about him.
a week later, my message got respond! Allah! only God knows how am I excited to read it. when i asked him about 'the problem' he said there's no problem. he said he just cannot explain it. ok. i am so 'really' satisfied with his answer. fine!
on the next day, he was the first to send a message to me in the morning. wowww! it was really unexpected. but, i can felt a kind of awkward between us. i don't know why. not to say that i was sulking but it was more into to show that i was not satisfied with his answer. so, i did some reverse psychology. i started to reply his text 'lebih kurang'. and, the SWOT analysis begun. i like!!!!
so finally, i got the answer! he said he was so disappointed with me when i cant have my time to meet him. goshhh! dont he knows that is one of my bad habit? hahahaha. i am so sorry darling. but i told him by keep himself silence it wont help me to understand him at all. for me, i did nothing but for you i had done something wrong. so, tell me. otherwise, things will remain unchange. i choose not to react in that way because i am afraid if anything happen it is too late for me to let him knows. that is why i x mudah sgt kecil hati dengan org yg i sayang. i will easily forgive but not to forget. unlike my bf, he said he rather keep quiet and be by himself for a short period. he need some space. adoiiiyayyy! so L, watch out! :P
what make confusing here is, we had discussed about this matter before. at the earlier stage of our relationship. i told him if there is anything we will let each other knows. well, i am not a mind reader. how could i know about something in your mind? come on.
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now i know a little bit about him. he is a person which is the other side of me. he is so concern about all the actions that i do towards him. wrong step will only make the situation worst. he is excited but he wont show his excitement. unlike me. when i am excited i will show that i am excited. i will definitely show the energy. last minute cancellation wont make me give up. i will definitely try for another time. that's a little bit about us. :)
ok darling. merci! be good ya. calins et baisers. je'taime. Mwahhhh..~!
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