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But, when i said i am done. Its done.
At least,
I dont have to cheat.
I dont have to keep.
I dont have to feel.
Koyak rabak jiwa beta dek kerana dihina.
Not obese. Please!
I kinda obsess with my lips. Sorry! Aha! So, perfect colour is very important me. Nah. Belanja molot seciput. *ngeh! #MH used to call that scarf as "alas meja". Cis.
Assalamualaikum. Finally, its raining in Kuala Terengganu. Btw, just a little reminder - be beautiful inside out loves. Your words, represent yourself. Yes, people will definitely fall in love with your first 10 secs. But, your attitude, your words will help to be long-last.
Gonna enjoy the rain. Yeay!
Take care loves. Jzkk.
Assalamualaikum. Hello and hye loves. Thank you for blogwalking.
This week is the last week of September 14. So, next week will be a new month - OCTOBER. Hello October babies. *eheh!
Well, despite my sad story about the sad ending of my relationship with #MH, i should say i have had great fun for this month. With mommy. With my bff. With my cousins. With my little sisters. With my new friends. With my students. And, a lot! Gonna celebrate my 30th soon, so for me to be older and wiser is very expected. But, am i? *haha! Allahu. Countless blesses.
Back to the topic. My real life begins at 30. As i mentioned before, yes. My journey is kinda late but better than never. Isn't? So, yes. I start to plan about my financial. First thing first, my loan for study. I didnt surprise when she told that i've been blacklisted by PTPTN. It is in my expectation. *haha! But, PTPTN had given me a solution on how to clear my name from being blacklisted. Alhamdulillah. Kalau tak, muda-muda lg dah declare bankcruptcy. *haih! I might have to spend around RM400.
Next, insurance. There you go. Like, wowwe! At least, an insurance for myself. Well, the future is not ours to see. Why not to have a protection? Say, i have to spend about RM250.
Then, saving! Wohoo. See! If i stick with the rules of 10% of my salary so i have to save about RM200 per month.
So, more or less i have to "spend" about RM900 for these three items. *phew!
Transportation? Accommodation? Umar and Khadeeja? Bills? Master? Emergency? My entertainment, my other loan (personal loan, vehicle loan and etc) will be among the least of my priority. Ya Allahurabb Ya Razzaq. I am totally speechless.*haha! How could i survive with RM2000.00 salary?
Allright. Have you plan your financial dears? Say if u have not yet, u better to start now. Its never too late.
Jzkk.
I feel bless with teeth!
Assalamualaikum. Today is 1st Zulhijjah - yeay! Let's fasting. Happy fasting dears. But, unfortunately i didnt fast for today since i have to accompany my cousin to go here and there. It was a very tiring day but still awesome.
Gosh! I think this is my first time to share this kind of reaction with the public. Yes. I do not pouting all the time. So, here it is. Say whatever u want to say about this photo.
Ouh. Btw, i think i am ready to come out with my very own skirts and shawls. Yes. To start a business. Yes. I bought the material. Pray for me, cant you? *thankyou! *aameen!
I cant wait to sew my very first skirt and shawl. Just wait! *heee!
Allright. Enjoy the first ten days of Zulhijjah. It is among the important days in Islam. It fulls of blesses.
Take care. Jzkk.
Yang hilang separuh nyawa
Yang kekosongan separuh jiwa
Yang mencari separuh gila
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I am ready to close our chapter - if i can slowly loved you before, i can slowly hate you now.
Missing you will be part of my happiness.
.
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Thinking of you will be part of my strengths.
Thank you Ya Razzaq for taking him away from me. Thank you for granting my do'a. Of course, for best reasons - I am ready to let him go. Lillahitaala.
Almost 2. Take care #MH
Jzkk.
Revenge?
Better not.
I will prefer to use the word of Kifarah. What goes around comes around. Fair play.
Take care love.
Jzkk.
She might not special to you, but to me she is everything. It is good to have the best listener whom could understand you like no one else could do.
Assalamualaikum. Finally. Finally. After i spilled out everything to her, only now i feel relieve.
Fariza Pak Aziz,
Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. We are 5 years now and still counting for more best moment together. Aku sayang kau ketat-ketat. Jumpa kt syurga, okayh? Mwah ciked!
Sleep tight loves. Jzkk.
Have a happy Wednesday everyone.
Assalamualaikum. Hye and hello readers. I am glad to know that now i feel better than yesterday. *alhamdulillah!
This morning, i took a few minutes to revise about the 30 chapters in my life. From the first day i was born, till now i am still breathing.
To compare with the standard of our society, my ultimate achievements were quite late or slow. While others have had their masters by 25, i get my degree when i am 30. When others have 2 or 3 children, i am still looking for the best zauj for me. Still and still. Nevertheless, i never regret my journey. Everything has been written from the first day i was created, remember? It might be late for the society but not for Him.
The last question which always comes across my mind, in fact for every day - ARE YOU READY FOR YOUR LAST BREATH?
Jzkk.
Assalamualaikum. I just bought a metal belt from an instaseller - RM35. btw, this is not my first time to shop from ig. In fact most of my daily care products i bought from instasellers. I even have a loooooooong waited list of things to buy from instagram. *kahh! Anyway, Thank you @FNSHOPHOLIC for ur best service so far. InsyaAllah, i will shop more from you.
What i would like to emphasize here is about customer service. Some instasellers fail this point. Maybe because of the transaction does not occur front to front so they can simply ignore this part.
Masa mintak duit, bukan main manis mulut awak. Bila awak buat silap, kita juga yg awak marah. Peliknya, kita minta elok-elok. Awak pulak nak maki-maki kita. Mungkin, bisnes awak kencang sgt agaknya sbb tu awak dgn senang hati nak maki kita. Kalau ngn retis, kemain meliuk-lentok awak punya puji. Mentanglah kita bukan retis. Yg tak boleh blah, siap bg tracking number yg salah. *hurm!
Pity those instasellers. Yet, u claim others try to ruin ur business. Babe, its all because of ur attitude ya. No matter how small their contributions to you, you have to appreciate it. Adat bila berjual beli, memang akan ada yg byk songeh.
Trust me. Because i am a seller too - for over twenty years!
Have a bless Tuesday loves. Jzkk.
Cukup gila. Cukup gedik. Cukup poyo.
When i actually feel so comfortable to be the real me when i am with him.
Assalamualaikum. Hello and hye readers. Ya Rabb. Such a hectic week. And, only today we both had a chance to have a long chat. Yes, just a chat since he was busy with his cousin's wed. Congratulation future cousin. *aameen!
Tomorrow will be my first hero's birthday - BABAH. i love you babah. No matter how many times i create troubles, you will never disowned me. Kak long anak yg degil kan bah? But, i promise you. I will find the best son in law for you. *aameen!
And him! Yes, him. Just him. Nope, i am not gonna talk bout him. Just yet.
Take care loves. Jzkk.
I really have no idea why i am having a difficulty to update my post on ig. *huwaa!
Assalamualaikum. Everyone will notice that i am exhausted. I am having a very pack-long journey since Sept, 15th until today. *sobs!
The picture and this post - disconnected. *haha! The caption should be "acik co-pilot yg penat melayan pakcik pilot yg mengarut". I cant wait to reach home. Nak peluk cium my cats, of course.
Hey! A few weeks away. *dupdap! *dupdap! InsyaAllah everything will be fine. *aameen!
Jzkk.
Assalamualaikum. Hye! After quite a long time i didnt touch him, anddddd! Finally i can touch him. I miss the blackberry so much.
Nah! I belanja 1 posing. Take care loves. Jzkk.
Assalamualaikum. Hello and hye readers. Hye stalker a.k.a #MH.
Live broadcast from B81, Felda Ulu Tebrau - rumah my nanny to be specific. InsyaAllah, i will accompany Kak Tin to register to UMT today. I have a very pack schedule for this break. 2 days before I travelled from Kuala Terengganu - Seremban. Yesterday, i travelled from Seremban to JB. Today, insyaAllah JB - Kuala Terengganu. While tomorrow, Kuala Terengganu - Sepang. Wohoo! And! Last but not least, by 21st Sept, insyaAllah Sepang - KL. I dont know, i just love it so much. Busy day. Pack schedule. It is me.
Well, my contract will be ended in another few weeks. Part of me feel sad. Part of me feel worried now. I really have to double up my job hunting's efforts. InsyaAllah, i will meet my very first bf soon. #prayforme ya?
I hate to call myself as a choosy but a particular, instead. Because, there are a few things that i dont really particular and vice versa. For a job, yes i have to be a little bit particular. Why? And what kind of particular that i am looking for.
When I am talking about a job, it means i am talking about Halal and Haram of the rezeki. Of course i have to be a little bit particular since i will eat and use the money. The number is just a number. I mean, there will be no point if u have a big salary but u lost the barakah. Aite? So, halal and barakah are two things that i am looking for in a job. I hope all of us are looking at the same direction too. Believe me or not, it will reflect to our daily life or i could say yes, it will a create a positive impact to us.
Such a long story for this post. *haih! All rite. Sobahulkhair loves! Have a god day.
Jzkk.
Have you ever experienced on how to be molested? N, now i feel it.
Assalamualaikum. Hello and good morning loves. Well, the picture is obviously contradicting my title. How could you smile after u've be molested? *haih!
I am not talking about physical touch of molest. But enough with a man purposely get into my room without my permission while i was not wearing my scarf. *hurm! I dont know bout you but i was totally pissed off with that situation. When i try to cover my hair he suddenly said "tak payah tutup2 la kak long. Tak de ape2 pun". I tell you, that was the moment that i about to cry - murahnya rasa. That's how people think about you, L. To that extend. Yes. It is nothing to you but it is something to me. I know i am staying in his house (by force!), but it does not mean he could access my room anytime that he wants. Like, hello? Dont u think i deserve ur respect?
Zina starts with you free your hair. Once you get comfortable, you will freely wear short. Then, sleeveless. Simple, isn't? MasyaAllah.
Senyum salah. Tak senyum salah. Baik salah. Tak baik pun salah. Serba tak kena. Why people tend to misunderstand my kindness? *haih!
Well, today i have a meeting with PKW. Of course it is about gamelan. Hopefully it will get something from the meeting. *aameen!
Take care readers. Jzkk.
Oh bulan,
Sampaikan rinduku
Oh bintang
Kirimkan cintaku
Yang hilang pastikah bersatu
Oh sayang
Di mana dirimu
Demi Allah, 2 months are like 2 years now. Ma and babah, i am counting days.
:'(
I am using redOne now or i am a redOne user now.
Assalamualaikum. I know, its kinda hurt me when Mr.C starts to charge my internet. *hukhuk! Fyi, previously i used my internet for free. *sobs! I have to say that "Allah has taken something from you only to replace with something good". So, bertabahlah hati. *nyeh!
And, of course you wont see me online 24/7. *huwa! It is a sign that i have to work extra hard from now on.
Spending my time in Terengganu, i cant avoid myself to think bout ma and babah. It just a sign that i cant stay far away from them. Allahurabb. InsyaAllah, may Allah gives me the best for me and my family and insyaAllah my future family - me and my kids.
I used to think to be a second wife. For the sake to get a baby. Once i get pregnant so my hubby could divorce me. But, i have a second thought that i will only cause him to go straight to the hell if i fail to teach my kids. So, okay. I decide to adopt babies. Perhaps, one boy and one girl. That's why i mention about me and my kids. Pray for me. *aameen!
Being ungrateful is always not a choice. We might think that rm25 is nothing but to others the rm25 meant everything. Tonight, i learnt about to be thankful. If i think that i am poor, there are others who are poorer than i am - so, let's start saving!
How will you react when people has a connotation of "dia org senang. Takpelah. Takde je mintak, time tu jugak dapat..." on YOU?
Jzkk.
The only thing about love is selfless. So, if you are not in that stage yet it means you are not insanely in love.
LOVE.
A ticket to be crazy. A ticket to be the other side of me. A ticket to love what i hate eventhough i hate it the most. A ticket to make my world upside down.
Just a ticket - LOVE.
Where i saw my heart was broken into pieces just like a shattered glass. Where i saw it drove my insane with my reality.
Does it means LOVE is harmful?
Wrong timing. Wrong participant. Wrong attendance. Wrong lesson. But it was a life-worth experience.
Wake up dear heart. Wake up dear imaan. There's nothing wrong with LOVE but how the participants play the role to understand the subject.
InsyaAllah, for a better journey. *aameen!
Jzkk.
My first selfie, my first update from my little heaven. *alhamdulillah!
Assalamualaikum. Finally, officially i am moving to my uncle's crib. All i need is just a little spark to push me "just go". N, yes. Here i am now. Frankly speaking, i feel so welcome to be part of this small family. *alhamdulilah! I have my own castle - master bedroom with attached bathroom. 3+2+1 sofa set in my room. A special swing so i can berangan anytime that i want and the location is a bit isolated from other areas. I have to say that the room is just perfect.
Now, i have another 7 weeks to survive in terengganu. Suddenly i feel like it will be a very short period for me. *kahh! Despite all the bad news happened, i still had my best moment today with my little sisters - Asma' and Najwa. May the friendship stays forever. Allhurabb. Thank you. *alhamdulillah!
I have nothing to say and i know this is nothing to compare with what u have gave to me but Alhamdulillah. Thank you Allah.
Jzkk.
Assalamualaikum. Hello and hye readers. My very last day in UniSZA. I mean, i will no more stay overnight in here. Today, i will officially stay at my uncle's crib. *haih!
So, today - is the day where i hv to bring all of my stuff to his house. Omo! My stull are like another ton of... anything. It still a lot! N, today they are going to see me around without my makeup. Not even a layer of powder or a pump of moisturiser. Yeay! The lazy me. But at least i took my bath. *haha!
Throughout these days, i hv to say that i've being tested with patience. I hv to wait for the store to be opened. I was here since Aug 31st and it can only be opened by today Sept 6th at 2.30pm. See! I hv to wait for another hours. They really have no idea how i have to survive with 2 shirts and 2 pants and 1 skirt. Allahurabb. N, my horse is not here yet. I posted him by Aug 28th and I dont even know when will him to be arrived. I dont want to blame anyone. I believe that Allah has chosen me to be tested. Alhamdulillah. I have no argument.
I pray to have a better day, today. InsyaAllah. Take care.
Jzkk.
Allah has stripping everything that i thought it will be good for me. *MasyaAllah!
Assalamualaikum. Hye stalkers. This is me with nyx. Finally, i manage to adjust the colour so it isnt too striking on lips. To wear nyx, it has a technique which they call it as "dap..dap" technique. Not a short form of "sedap-sedap" hokayh. "Dap-dap" technique is basically a technique where you have to take small portions of the cream/liquid and put it at the area that u want to apply the cream/liquid. Then, you can apply the cream/liquid all over ur face using the portion which u applied before. Easy?
Use the same technique when u want to apply ur nyx liquid matte, "dap-dap" here and there and apply all over the lips by using ur finger. *Walah! You are now ready to hit the road. *haha!
Btw, it is good to have the best listener around. *Alhamdulillah! And, happiness is not a destiny, but a journey instead.
Jzkk.
